Tyler-chan
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Life isn't about finding yourself, it's about creating yourself.
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Post by Tyler-chan on Sept 26, 2010 18:53:50 GMT -5
When he kissed me a second time, he put his hand on my arm. I put my arms around his neck and leaned in a little bt more. I wanted to be with him so much right this second. I couldn't explain how much he meant to me in this moment. I wanted live in this moment forever. I didn't want any of this to stop.
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Post by XMA on Sept 28, 2010 3:40:09 GMT -5
My heart was racing, I couldn't think straight. All I wanted to do was to kiss this incredible girl that I only met today. I wanted to be with her forever. I wrapped my arms around her waist and held her tighter. I never wanted to let go.
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Tyler-chan
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Life isn't about finding yourself, it's about creating yourself.
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Post by Tyler-chan on Apr 4, 2011 13:42:21 GMT -5
My mind felt clouded, there was no chance of me thinking straight anymore. I felt chills run down my spine and goose bumps form on my arms. I felt a smile playing at my lips and I felt light headed. The sound of my heart beat in my ears and the sound of the river flowing by is all that I heard. The sun beating down on us and the feel of his arms around me and his lips against mine is all that I felt. This moment was absolute perfection. But after a brief second of pulling away to move a caught strand of hair and moving back in for another kiss is when I realized what I actually was doing. I was going against what I had promised myself years ago. I was allowing myself to get close to another guy. I swore to myself that I would never do that again after last time. I then pulled away quickly and touched my lips. I knew I was the one that started that but I had to have known better. How could the past slipped from my mind when it haunted me everyday?
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Post by XMA on Apr 4, 2011 15:11:48 GMT -5
When she quickly pulled away, I got slapped back into reality. I sat there, frozen, with my hands by my side, looking down, not into her eyes. I didn't know what to do. I had so many feelings inside of me, I didn't know what to feel. I felt horrible for making her kiss me again. I felt embarrassed because she pulled away. I felt happy because we kissed. I felt sad that it had to stop. I felt confused because I didn't know what she was thinking. The only thing to, hesistantly, come out of my mouth was, "Are you okay?"
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Tyler-chan
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Life isn't about finding yourself, it's about creating yourself.
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Post by Tyler-chan on Apr 4, 2011 17:55:24 GMT -5
"N...ye..yeah I'm fine..." I said as I positioned myself with my head in between my knees. "Sorry this isn't fair to you..." I said I pursed my lips hard and shut my eyes tight. "There's just so many things I can't risk any more" I whispered I then stood up and dusted myself off. My hands were held in a tight fist, my knuckles were white and my nails were digging in to my hands hard. "You are a really nice guy. And I'm being really unfair to you. " I spoke in a voice that was even as I could get it, but it still cracked because I was on the verge of tears. "I'll only be trouble if I'm around you too much..." I whispered and looked away as something fell down my face.
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Post by XMA on Apr 5, 2011 15:01:52 GMT -5
All these things she said to me were startling. We were just acting like nothing ever was wrong and it seemed as if we were in paradise, then she says no to everything. I slowly stood up, looking right at her. "wait. what do u mean, whats going on?" i asked as i saw a tear run down her face. I stood there, frozen, not knowing what i should do. I wanted to do so many things to help, but i didn't know if she would allow it. I stood there, waiting, listening, hoping for an answer.
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Tyler-chan
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Life isn't about finding yourself, it's about creating yourself.
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Post by Tyler-chan on Apr 5, 2011 16:45:20 GMT -5
It's something you shouldn't get involved with.." I said "if he finds out-" I stopped short. 'Damn it' I thought. I looked up at the position of the sun in the sky and realized it was just about 2:30 now. "Shit!" I yelped "Ty?" I voice asked and I felt myself stiffen. I never thought I'd hate the sound of my own name so much. I slowly turned to see him stand behind the barrier and stair at us. His black hair hanging in his face and dark brown evil eyes were in a slight glare at me. "Ty, what's going on?" His voice was more of a threat than a question. "Uh.." I started and then bit my lip.
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Post by XMA on Apr 6, 2011 3:31:03 GMT -5
As I put all of my questions in the back of my head, to return to them later, my mind went straight to the newcomer. Obviously they knew each other, but it seemed like they didn't have a good relationship. "Who is that?" i asked, my voice full of confusion. I looked at Tyler, hoping for an answer to everything that was going on. I was so lost, I didn't even know where to start. i repeated my question in the same tone. "Who is that?"
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Tyler-chan
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Life isn't about finding yourself, it's about creating yourself.
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Post by Tyler-chan on Apr 6, 2011 4:00:43 GMT -5
"Ty, I'm ashamed of you. How come you didn't tell the poor boy who I was?" He asked in a mocking tone. "Christopher, leave him out of this." I told him. I didn't want him hurting anyone else. "I have no intentions of having anymore blood on my hands" Christopher laughter, he then jumped the barrier and walked towards me, he wrapped his arm around my shoulders roughly "thanks for finding my girl for me, she can be hell to find sometimes, damn good at hide and seek, but it looks like you lost this time dear." With his touch and word choice I felt myself stiffen and fear grow more intense inside of me. I gave Michael a look that felt like it consisted of fear, embarrassment, and sorrow. "C"mon, Ty" Christopher said and started leading me off I still looked back at Michael and felt the fear of walking away with a terror that this devil was to me. I was hurt that I couldn't have a relationship with anyone because of this demon that haunted me. I felt like running out of Christopher's gasp but I knew all to well that he was armed"
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Post by XMA on Apr 6, 2011 18:45:23 GMT -5
(( oh how i wish Cooper was in this story. heeheeheehee > )) As this unknown guy, apparently her boyfriend, took her away from me, I just felt like my heart was ripped out of my chest, held in front of me, dropped on the sandy beach, stomped on 100 times, burnt the life out of it, and got shoved back into my chest. I felt as if a hole big enough to swallow the entire universe was in my heart. There were no words to how heart broken I was. As she walked away, I could feel a lump form in my throat, as my eyes began to fill with unbearable tears. My hands started to shake, my bottom lip quivered. Never have I experienced this terrorizing, traumatic, heartbreaking experience. I crashed to my knees with tears flooding from my eyes, and down my cheeks, dripping off of my chin, and being soaked up into the sandy beaches below my house. With every one of her foot steps away from me, I felt a very sharp, burning sensation in my heart. All i could hear was her walking away, out of my life, while my tears were a never ending river.
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Tyler-chan
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Life isn't about finding yourself, it's about creating yourself.
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Post by Tyler-chan on Apr 6, 2011 19:10:34 GMT -5
I felt like the only thing that would be safe in my life was taken from me before it had even been given to me. Instead I was being brought straight into the past, straight back to the reason my family had moved here last year. To get me out of the deadly situation that Chisrtopher presented. I was trying har to figure out why the universe hated me so, I was always a good girl. I always obaiedd my parents, never broke rules, always home on time and never did anything against my morals. So why did Chirstopher keep apearing in my life? I wanted him out but he never go the message. We eventually reached his car, when we did he pushed me hard against it. When I hit the car I felt breathless, chrisopher theb roughly turned me around so I was facing him. "What in HELL was that?!" He yelled at me, "what were you thinking!?" "That was me being happy for a god damned change!" I yelled back. "Shut up!" He yelled and shook me, my head hit the car hard and made me wince. "And ANOTHER thing, I AM NOT your girl!" I shot at him. "I said SHUT UP!" Christopher yelled and hit me hard enough for me to be nocked to the ground, I could feel a black eye coming now. Then he dragged me to my feet by the callor of my shirt. "Let's get this one thing straight, as long as I'm alive you will ALWAYS be my girl. I don't care how many more boys I have to distroy for you to understand this but the sooner you do, the less people will get hurt." He said in a calmer tone. I then felt him closing in on me so I gave him one swift kick and he fell to the ground. I then took off running the way I came, I didn't think of anything but my flight reaction took over and that was all I needed.
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Post by XMA on Apr 6, 2011 20:09:57 GMT -5
As my heart was ever so slowly healing back, I sat down, crossed my legs, and faced the river. 'I'll never love someone ever again' i thought. My shirt was tear stained, and I could hardly breathe i was crying so much. I put my head in between my knees and hugged myself. All i wanted was someone to love, someone to care about, someone i could talk to anything about, someone that loved ME. but i guess she just threw it all into my face. I started to feel angry. 'Why would i want someone that is just going to cheat on me? She cheated on him with me, so what makes ME any different? She'll probably just cheat on me!' I thought to myself. I stood up, wiped the tears away from my eyes, took in a couple deep breaths and thought that she was only one girl. There are plenty out there. I zipped up my jacket and put my hands in my pocket. As I was sliding my hands inside my pocket, I felt a small device, and I instantly remembered what it was...
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Tyler-chan
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Life isn't about finding yourself, it's about creating yourself.
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Post by Tyler-chan on Apr 6, 2011 20:35:09 GMT -5
I ran until it hurt, I ran until I couldn't breathe, I ran until my body was screaming for me to stop. When I finally did stop I stumbled on to a bench that was close to some houses but still fairly close to the river. In the distance I saw Michael and my heart sank. I touched my eye, and it hurt like hell. I knew what Christopher was trying to do, he wanted to ruin all chances of happiness. I honestly did want to be with Michael, but with Christopher's word choice, he must think I'm a cheat. That I wanted to cheat on Christopher but when in reality Christopher and I were never together and had been broken up for three years. I wanted to walk over to Michael but three things stopped me: one, my legs felt like jelly. Two, I had a black eye starting to form . And three, he must think I'm a cheat thanks to Christopher. 'I HATE HIM SO MUCH!!' I thought as tears started running down my face. "I hate him so much, why does he always have to destroy my happiness?" I whispered to myself and I stuck my head in between my knees.
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Post by XMA on Apr 7, 2011 2:09:48 GMT -5
As I calmed myself down, I picked up a rock and attempted to skip it across the water. It hit with one big "plump" and sank slowly down to the bottom. I couldn't believe what just happened. Honestly, my heart was ripped into a million pieces, but as a defense mechanism, I was "convinced" that this really didn't matter, and inside was just a giant black hole. I shrugged as much pain as I could off, and walked back to the pizza shop. Along the way, I thought about all the questions I needed answers to. 'How is she being unfair, how is she being any trouble, and why didn't she tell me about him?' I hated being confused, but I knew there was no chance of getting any answers. I reached down and touched the device in my pocket one more time, hoping that it would help somehow...
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Tyler-chan
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Life isn't about finding yourself, it's about creating yourself.
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Post by Tyler-chan on Apr 7, 2011 2:46:09 GMT -5
As I started to calm down I realized that my shift was getting ready to start. I picked myself up off the bench and took a deep breath. Doing what I have been doing for years, pretending that it will all be okay someday. Believing ignorance is bliss. I walked to the pizza shop with a quick pace and being very alert of my surroundings. Once at the pizza shop I donned the only piece of the uniform that was required, which was the apron. "Ty, what happened to your face?" The manager asked. "Nothing that maTters too much" I lied and he didn't ask any more questions. I put on the company hat to help hide the mark but I knew it would only work if I was looking down. I then noticed that we were low on ingredients so I went in the back to fetch some more, when I did I heard the bell ring as the dinner rush was coming in. "Lord, please help me..." I whispered.
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