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Post by Koops on Jul 1, 2008 0:18:25 GMT -5
He heard her leave her room and frowned to himself, he laid on his bed on his stomach and closed his eyes. This time, i've got nothing to apologize for. White told himself and sighed softly, letting out all of the bad feelings he had inside. "I should call Killian for advice... Naw, he'd only laugh at me."
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Post by Milk on Jul 1, 2008 0:23:45 GMT -5
Lilly made a small breakfast, and ate it quickly. She stared blankly out the window at the meadow. It was so beautiful...And peaceful...And happy. She glared at it suddenly, and felt really childish. She looked away from the happiness, and down at the table, holding tears back. She knew what was wrong. She wasn't happy. She'd never been happy, and she shied away from anything that could cause it. And now, not doing anything at all for anyone...It was catching up to her.Her eyes were getting wet.
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Post by Koops on Jul 1, 2008 0:26:51 GMT -5
White oushed himself out of the bed and walked downstairs into the kitchen, he saw at the table across from Lilly and watching her curiously. "I'm going to speak with my parents, about sending you somewhere else..." He told her, his voice rather calm for the situation.
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Post by Milk on Jul 1, 2008 0:29:43 GMT -5
Lilly looked up at him, her eyes still wet. She frowned and sighed, then said calmly, "You should speak to my previous master first, since that was who sent me here." She closed her eyes and turned away from him, unable to look at him either, because it was him that was causing her the sudden overwhelming feelings of anger, and pain, and hurt. She spoke again, her voice breaking this time, "I'm sorry I am a disappointment to you."
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Post by Koops on Jul 1, 2008 0:33:11 GMT -5
"No. I should be sorry, you haven't done anything wrong... It's just that, i'm against slavery and things like that. And right now i'm feeling like a huge hypocrite so yeah..." White responded and stared at her face. I guess I will talk to her old Master... He thought to himself.
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Post by Milk on Jul 1, 2008 0:35:43 GMT -5
Lilly shrugged, disagreeing obviously. She stood and left the room, going to her room to let the waterworks come. She couldn't hide them or force them back when he was there. She couldn't find any emotion of relief to return to her previous home. Instead, she found more of the anger and the hurt. Lilly slid to the floor in her closet, shut the door, and then hid her face in her hands, crying.
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Post by Koops on Jul 1, 2008 0:40:43 GMT -5
He watched her leave and as soon as she was gone he let his head fall down onto the table and his shoulders sag. She's upset... Very, very upset. White told himself and laughed bitterly at his own stupidity. I haven't spoken to my parents, or Lilly's previous master yet... So I may change my mind on her leaving. White thought to himself and smiled weakly to himself.
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Post by Milk on Jul 1, 2008 0:46:05 GMT -5
Lilly curled into a ball in the closet, leaning against the corner. Stop crying! White will think it's his fault. Go downstairs and explain why you're upset... she thought, beginning to stand. She wiped her eyes and sniffed, then went downstairs, holding the tears back to her best extent. She didn't have much to say though, so when she reappeared in the kitchen, she just blurted out, "It's not your fault."
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Post by Koops on Jul 1, 2008 0:48:32 GMT -5
He looked up at her and saw that she had been crying, he flund himself out of his seat and rushed over to her and wrapped his arms around her and her in a friendly way. "Yeah it is! Why can't you just blame me for one thing?!" White asked her and hugged her, his chin on top of her head gently.
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Post by Milk on Jul 1, 2008 0:52:50 GMT -5
Lilly blushed and didn't move, even though she did not want to be touched. Finally, she put her hands on his chest, and pushed him away gently, to glare up at him. "Because it's not, you idiot. You havent' done one thing wrong at all! What the problem is is ME." She said, and wiped her eyes again, since she'd started crying again. "I'm not used to having choices. I'm not used to not being used. I'm not...Not used to this!" she snapped, motioning to the meadow, glaring at it. "It's all...Happy. And I'm not."
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Post by Koops on Jul 1, 2008 0:58:24 GMT -5
"Well i'm not happy either, Lilly!" White finally roared out in anger and bared his teeth at her harshly, clearly having had enough with this. "I try, and I try, again, and again to tell you to relax, go out if you want, have fun, and stop asking me if I want something. It's simple... And i'm usually a patient guy, but you, Lilly... Are a frustrating, infuriating, attractive, innocent, and odd woman. And you make me want to scream." He growled out at her and didn't even care if she would hit him or run away or start crying even more.
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Post by Milk on Jul 1, 2008 1:04:14 GMT -5
Lilly flinched at the anger, but still stood her ground. "I don't know how to relax, or have fun! Did you not notice that?" she snapped back. "Relax?! You ask me to relax, and I tried, I really did! It made me anxious! Because I grew up in a place where relaxation was being unconcious while people raped and took advantage of me." Lilly was crying harder. "And fun? What the fuck is fun? How does one have this so-called fun I hear so much about, huh? Tell me how, and I'll go fucking do it!" She hugged her body, sobbing. She had used her first curse word, which showed how angry she was. But it wasn't at him, not most of it anyways.
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Post by Koops on Jul 1, 2008 1:09:10 GMT -5
"I hate how I can actually have feelings for someone who doesn't even have to ability to observe and learn from her surroundings, nor the bravery to actually go out and do something." White said, now his voice was low and his eyes looked hard and cold, he turned from her and walked into the backyard, slamming the door roughly behind him, a glass fell off of the counter and onto the ground smashing loudly.
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Post by Milk on Jul 1, 2008 1:13:45 GMT -5
Lilly glared at the glass, then softened, going to pick it up. Feelings? For her? A petty, weak, cowardly slave? Ha! "It's just lust. It's always lust." she muttered, cutting her hand on a shard. It was a deep cut, too. She picked up the rest, cutting her hands more, then went upstairs to the bathroom to bandage her hands. She stared at her hands, and then glared at them, watching them curl into fists. She decided to save him a call, grabbed her bag, and left the house, shutting the door behind her and beginning her trek through the meadow towards the forest. She made sure her hair hid her face so no one saw she was crying, and afraid, and angry.
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Post by Koops on Jul 1, 2008 1:17:29 GMT -5
He was fuming outside, his eyes angry and his blood feeling as if it was boiling inside of him dangerously. White sighed after about fifteen minutes and sat on the grass thinking, it took him another fifteen minutes to actually get up and go back inside again. Where is she? White asked himself and looked around the house silently, he couldn't hear her or feel her presence. "She left..." He muttered to himself and then grabbed his keys and wallet before leaving the house to find Lilly.
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