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Post by Milk on Jul 27, 2008 1:07:35 GMT -5
Lilly watched him back, crying mostly. She watched him go as well, then stared at the door. Once he was gone, she collapsed on the bed, sobbing and clutching the area above her heart. She was curled in a ball, just wishing to be put out of the pain. She cried herself to sleep.
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Post by Koops on Jul 28, 2008 1:30:23 GMT -5
After a few hours of sitting outside on his deck he got up and went inside, and phoned Killian to speak with him for a while about things. "I don't know what to do..." White murmered and let out a soft sigh. "Well, firstly, you could just forget about ever talking about anything. Tomorrow when you see her, just act like nothin' happened, and if she wants to bring it up, she will." "A-are you sure that's a good idea?" "Positive, now get some sleep, alright?" "Alright... Bye." He murmered, though the phone had already been hung up on the other line. White frowned to himself, then stood and went upstairs, he stopped outside of Lilyl's door for a moment and then went into his bedroom to go to bed.
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Post by Milk on Jul 28, 2008 1:38:32 GMT -5
Lilly woke up panting. She looked around wildly, as if she were lost. Her eyes settled on a clock. It was harldy two in the morning. She slowly calmed down and got off of the bed to go to the bathroom. She stripped down and hopped in the shower. She scrubbed her body and hair rigorously, causing a rash-like appearance on her arms and legs in small parts. She scrubbed too hard. She kept mumbling about being filthy, too filthy, and bad.
Somewhere, in the subconcious of her mind, Lilly was struggling to re-awaken the girl she had been when she'd arrived there, and change that girl. But she also wanted to see herself accept that she had gone through many painful things, and that now was the time to get over them.
By the time she got out of the shower, she had quite a few rash-like marks on her body, still quite soapy hair, and three cuts from an attempt to shave her legs. IT was a pretty poor attempt. She Stared at herself in the mirror, and slowly grew angry at the reflection she saw. She punchedt he mirror, though it didn't break. She walked away and curled back up in bed, naked, but didn't dare fall back to sleep.
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Post by Koops on Jul 28, 2008 22:38:27 GMT -5
White was woken up when he heard the shower running, he listened siletly, thinking about lilly. It's two in the morning... Maybe she felt sick or something. He thought to himself and waited to hear the water stop running. When he did he listened a bit more and then heard a loud bang sound, then hummed softly to himself. Sitting up in bed he pondered on whether or not he should go and check on her. "Even if we're not on the best terms it's the right thing to do." He muttered out and got out of his bed.
Out in the hallway he sighed to himself and then knocked on Lilly's door gently before opening it and peeking inside curiously. "Lilly? Are you alright?" White asked, he saw her form on the bed, but it was to dark to clearly make her out.
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Post by Milk on Jul 28, 2008 22:41:06 GMT -5
Lilly sat up slightly, looking at the door with tired eyes. She licked her lips, internally debating on how to answer. "I'm...fine." she whispered quietly, but loud enough that he'd make it out. She hoped eh wouldn't catch the lie in it. She got under the covers quickly just in case.
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Post by Koops on Jul 28, 2008 23:02:54 GMT -5
He frowned a little and opened the door more, his eyes finally adjusting to the light, he saw her under the covers and cocked his head slightly to the side. "If you were fine, then why did you have a shower at two o'clock in the morning?" White questioned her, his voice much more husky and gruff then usual.
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Post by Milk on Jul 28, 2008 23:05:11 GMT -5
"I woke up, and felt dirty," she answered. That was truthful, although 'dirty' meant something different to her then the way it sounded. She made it sound like she felt she was covered in something dirty, whereas the word to her meant her mind was dirty. "I'm sorry for waking you up." SHe was sincere.
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Post by Koops on Jul 28, 2008 23:08:17 GMT -5
"It's alright, I don't mind about you waking me up. I would just like to really know what's up with you? You... Uh... Are you still upset about the conversation we had?" White asked and walked more into the room, he shut the door gently behind him and leaned back against it.
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Post by Milk on Jul 28, 2008 23:10:44 GMT -5
Lilly curled up a bit more, as if to protect herself. "Mmm...I don't know what's wrong..." she mumbled sadly. "And...Yes, I am. Though upset isn't...the good word to use." She bit her lip, waiting for anger to come, and the questions. She closed her eyes and images of hands coming down harshly on her body caused her body to shake with fear. WHite won't do that. she thought, or rather pleaded.
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Post by Koops on Jul 28, 2008 23:15:26 GMT -5
White was oddly silent with the words, he looked down at the ground, though all he could really see was more darkness. He softly sighed and pushed himself off the door and walked over to lilly's bed quietly, then sat down on the edge of it and put his hand on her face gently. "Sorry."
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Post by Milk on Jul 28, 2008 23:19:26 GMT -5
Lilly mistook the silence for anger and pain, and felt wetness falling out of her eyes once more. She was about to start blubbering apologies and pleads again, when he walked over and placed a hand on her face. Her cheeks burned under his hand with fever. She was getting ill. "For what?" she asked, voice breaking. "YOu did nothing wrong." She was doing it again- blaming herself.
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Post by Koops on Jul 28, 2008 23:33:30 GMT -5
White sighed and laid down on the bed, his hand moved down to her arm gently and gave a soft hum. "I'm sorry for bringing the whole thing up in the first place, and for bringing it up now." He explained and smiled sadly to himself at her self blaming, he would really have to help her to stop doing that.
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Post by Milk on Jul 28, 2008 23:36:40 GMT -5
she mentally twitched when his hand stopped over one of the rashes. THey still burned a little. "It's not your fault." she whispered. "I'm sorry I'm pessimistic, depressing, self-blaming and hating, cowardly, unchanging, ignorant, un-educated, no-brained, hideous slave who will never be good enough for you because all that should belong to the one a girl loves has been taken and now I'm only used-goods." She was crying again. "I don't feel good...And don't tell me I'm not any of those things...Somehow I think this is just a phase."
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Post by Koops on Jul 28, 2008 23:40:09 GMT -5
"Used-goods..." He murmered and moved his hand from her arm and onto the ebd between them, he was very quiet again and then let out a mutter of somethings under his breath before sitting up slightly. "Do you need some medicine?" White asked, his tone a little worried now, there was no anger there at all. He didn't care if she was all of those things or not, he still loved her and that was that.
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Post by Milk on Jul 28, 2008 23:42:25 GMT -5
"I don't know...I've never had medicine before." she mumbled, looking up at him with tired eyes. "I suppose so...This won't kill me though...I get sick like this once a month." She was referring to the fever, not the odd act she'd had lately.
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