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Post by Koops on Jul 26, 2008 22:43:46 GMT -5
White was outside in his backyard, sitting on the deck and glaring out at the trees. He had a cigarette in his mouth which was abnormal because he only smoked on rare occasions, like when he was thinking very hard on something. "I have such terrible luck with women, don't I? Hah! I deserve being treated the way I do by Lilly I guess..." White murmered under his breath and took another drag of his smoke before throwing it onto the ground and slamming his foot down on it. He walked inside and lazily kicked off his shoes before walking upstairs and into Lilly's bedroom, he glanced around for her and then his eyes landed on the closet. "Are you in the closet?" He questioned and walked over to it, staring at the door blankly.
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Post by Milk on Jul 26, 2008 22:46:48 GMT -5
Lilly stiffened when she heard feet in her room, then his voice. She wiped her eyes hurriedly, not wanting to be caught doing that of all things. "Y-...Yes." she answered loud enough that he'd hear. He should yell at you. You deserve it. You're hurting him by being like this...How can he love you?
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Post by Koops on Jul 26, 2008 23:06:35 GMT -5
He listened to her and frowned to himself more, then rested his head gently agaist the door, thinking hard. "Will you come out for me?" White asked her quietly and slowly moved himself back from the door and sat on the edge of her bed, watching the closet with a soft gaze.
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Post by Milk on Jul 26, 2008 23:08:24 GMT -5
Lilly gulped, wiping her eyes again. She opened the door from the floor, then stood. She took a step out, looking at hte floor with her bangs hiding her eyes. "Yes?" she asked.
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Post by Koops on Jul 26, 2008 23:12:54 GMT -5
"Come here, please..." He murmered, patting a spot next to him on the bed for her to sit while they spoke with one another.
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Post by Milk on Jul 26, 2008 23:13:33 GMT -5
Lilly nodded and slowly walked over, then took a seat by him. She continued to stare downwards, not wanting to be caught with red wet eyes.
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Post by Koops on Jul 26, 2008 23:29:26 GMT -5
White sighed out and gently grasped Lilly's chin with one of his hands and made her look him in the eyes. "You were crying, because of me..." He said, his voice sounding pained and his eyes turning sad, he had hurt her. I made her cry.... How could I do that to her? He asked himself and swallowed hard, he looked away from her and closed his eyes. "I've made you very upset, haven't I...?"
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Post by Milk on Jul 26, 2008 23:33:53 GMT -5
Lilly shook her head immediately. "No! NO! It wasn't you, I swear...Don't be sad!" she said in a hurried, upset-with-herself-more voice, holding his face. "Don't be sad...It's not your fault...I'm sorry...I'll smile, see?" She said, smiling, even though it was a sad smile.
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Post by Koops on Jul 26, 2008 23:50:06 GMT -5
"Stop trying to blame yourself, that's all you ever do... Do you not understand how upset that makes me? I can't stand it when you blame yourself, especially when you're plainly not the one to blame." White snapped and opened his eyes, looking into hers with anger, and sadness, but love as well. He then calmed himself down and brought Lilly closer to him, his eyes never leaving hers. "I know that you're confused from my confession of love for you, and you must think i'm lying, but i'm not lying, I truly love you!" He insisted to her, his eyes truthful and hopeful, he wanted her to understand him, even if just a little bit.
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Post by Milk on Jul 26, 2008 23:55:25 GMT -5
She nodded at the first thing, understanding that, but at the same time thinking that all of this was her fault. She felt tears welling up again when he continued on, and when she saw the love for her in his eyes. She shook her head again, looking down. "It can't be...It can't..." she whimpered out, crying more. "It's always lust...IT's not love...Just...Just do me and get it out of your system!" She wasn't understanding, Not right now anyways. She was scared, and anxious, and depressed. "I don't want to be hurt anymore...please...no more...No more, please..."
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Post by Koops on Jul 27, 2008 0:07:48 GMT -5
His jaw trembled slightly and he licked his bottom lip and then looked away from Lilly once again and down to the bed. "I'm not going to force myself upon you, I want to make love with you... I want you to love me to... But you don't so i'll leave you alone, but first you've got to tell me to leave you alone, and that you don't love me." White said and looked back up at Lilly, his eyes were a bit wet to, he was terribly sad at the moment, and guilt was slowly taking over his mind.
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Post by Milk on Jul 27, 2008 0:23:05 GMT -5
Lilly stiffened. He thought she didn't love him. She lowered her head more, in pain. He thought she didn't love him. He thought she didn't love him. He thought...The message was sinking in. Her lips trembled , her eyes saddened immensely. She did as he asked and told him what he wanted to hear, though she clearly didn't mean it. "Leave me alone." she mumbled. "I...don't...l..love you."
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Post by Koops on Jul 27, 2008 0:45:12 GMT -5
His eyes widened slightly at her words and he leaned forwds slightly, both of his hands holding her face gently. "You're the best thing thats ever happened to me... And i'll always love you." White whispered to her and kissed her lips softly before breaking away and letting her free from his hands.
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Post by Milk on Jul 27, 2008 0:49:27 GMT -5
Her lips trembled against his when he kissed her. She stared at him, her breathing picking up and the tears trailing down her cheeks double time. She stared at him, confusion and pain, and self-hatred in her eyes. SHe really hated herself right now. She did'nt know what to say. She had nothing to say that wouldnt' upset him.
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Post by Koops on Jul 27, 2008 1:04:24 GMT -5
White watched her for a long while and then abruptly stood and left the bedroom without looking at Lilly again. That was enough for him, just knowing she had feelings for him was enough. He walked outside into the backyard again and slammed the door behind him and then sat on the deck, looking at the sky sadly. She's been hurt before.
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